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i hate when people blog like 5 times a day. shut the hell up.

as you can tell, i'm not in one of the best moods. i've been doing nothing lately. last night i seriously was going crazy so at around 9 i went for a really long walk by myself. it's good to do that once in a while. i hate when people tell me we'll hang out and then they never bother calling back or anything. i really rather not sit here and wait for you.
sorry that nothing sounds seems exciting anymore, what would you like me to do? fuck you.

"it's time to say what the fuck's on my mind,
it's your smile that i miss."

edit: aww i went to the beach today. it was veryyyy fun. i should go there more often! i wish i had interesting things to say. i'm glad we're getting closer and closer. seriously, it reminds me of how it used to be, thanks (:

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okay, yesterday was just terrible. i haven't felt that upset in so long. another kid committed suicide. i feel so bad for everyone. :( i don't know, it just made me realize a lot of things.
i'm so damn bored right now. seriously, it's getting to the point where i rather just sleep my whole fucking summer away. i have nothing better to do. the last couple of days were mad fun though. water and whatnot. anyways.... i have nothing that great to say.
i'm glad we're really close right now. i don't know. i guess i missed it? whatever, if it makes me smile then i guess it's important. sureeeeeee why not!

"one day there will be no more pain, like an opiate wonderland"

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hi! this was a fun weekend. last night i went to a grad party. hahaha it was a good time. i don't feel sick anymore and food can actually stay in my stomach now! tomorrow is monday....summer school. blah! i haven't gone to the beach yet but i might tomorrow, who knows. i don't have much to say, bye!
seeing you was weird. i had no idea how to act but when you left, i felt happy, i guess. i don't know!

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i haven't written in so long! well, nothing has really happened. same shit different day. i'm so bored lately. summer school is ruining everything for me :( today when i came home, i was in the mood to clean. so i cleaned everything and went through everything under my bed and i found stuff from 5-6 years ago. :/ most things i remembered but some i felt like i never even seen. i don't know. it was weird. i miss those days. they were so great. back then, i would have never of thought that i'd be where i am today. yup. nothing else to say. bye!
where are you?! i feel like i haven't talked to you in months. this is not fun. :(

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hey there. today was my second day of summer school, exciting....... not. it's hard having to wake up from your deepest sleep, at 7 in the morning, to go to school. but after those two hours there, i usually have a good day.
i've been in really weird moods lately. they make me feel like i don't care about anything anymore, or maybe not even that. maybe that everything is not as important as i once thought it was. it's different, but i don't think i'm going to complain about it. i kind of like it. i know why it's happening, that's the great part. aaaand i don't think i'm going to change it either.
everyone has been bringing their so called 'problems' along to me, but honestly, i really couldn't care any less than i do. eeeeee this sounds bad, but it's true! i like this whole 'not caring' thing. it's a different way of living. i mean, yes i care about some things, and i always will. but for now, dumb shit will no longer effect me in any way.
so later tonight something will happen that will only happen once in my life. it's kind of creepy actually, it'll happen in the next century. shortly after 12pm the moment will come. it'll be 12:34:56 7/8/9. uh, that's weird maaan. i'm going to try to stay awake for it. hopefully i can because all i've been wanting to do lately is sleep. byeeee!

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today was a good day. different but fun. (: anddd i'm too tired to write the rest. goodbye!

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it's been a while since i felt like this. yuuuum. not much to say. people piss me off. i've been home for a couple of days, and i like it so much better. i like not having to deal with people and the bullshit they bring. much more relaxing. uh today was fun. maaad tired now. it's all worth ittttttt. goodbye<3.