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hi. i always forget to write here, i usually only do if it's somewhat important. last night was new, fun, weird, and interesting. i don't even know. i feel distant from some people and i'm not liking it. i feel like it's the things i do? i don't know... but it's my life, and if i want to do something i am going to do it. don't make me feel like shit about it, just be there for me okay? whatever. i don't know what i'm doing today and don't really care at this point. goodbye.

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i don't fucking care anymore.

today was beyond terrible. the things that happened, the people i saw, i just can't. i can't concentrate on anything anymore. i'm always thinking of something else and it fucking sucks. i don't know what to do. i need something to change. fuck school, fuck stress, fuck it all, FUCK YOU.

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honestly, i don't remember what happened yesterday. but friday was a very good time. love my best friends. today i did nothing, not surprising. this was a good break. i hate sundays, they remind me that i have a whole week of school ahead of me. ugh. i haven't really been eating normally, and i have clue why. and i'm so dizzy right now but i just can't get myself to eat anything =[. whatever, overall, i'm happy.

you... i'm really glad how we are right now. this is what i was talking about, this is what i need. i don't want more, or less. just this. i'm so happy, you have no idea. i hope you feel the same way.

p.s- i have a really bad craving. and now i actually know what it is. now that i have you^ the way that i want, i realized you're not the craving, get it? i'm not suppose to like this, but i really do. thank you. goodbye.

16

okay so today was the most awkward day of my life basically. LOL. i can't. but it was totally worth it. tonight's going to be lots of fun. hahahaha. UGH IT'S ALREADY FRIDAY. this break went so fucking fast. lalala okay, i need to brush my teeth and leave! i'll be gone for the night. (: goodbye!

15

i don't even know. i woke up and did nothing for about 6 hours. FUN. then later around 4 tor and kiddy came over. and i made them dinner (: well..... some of it. then we were suppose to walk around but we went to taco bell with people and then to stores and then some kids house for a while. i just laugh thinking about it. anyways, tomorrow's going to be new........ literally. :D very very excited. i hope it all works out the way it's planned. and plus, i don't have to come home tomorrow night, so that's always good. lalala! okay i need to get sleep. and read my booooooook. (: goodnight whoever!

that is the city. i thought it would fit with my mood. because one of my favorite bands [This Providence] had a show in the city tonight and i couldn't go. :( 6 more months!

14

lalalaaaaaa. REALLY GOOD MOOD. and i don't know why! so last night i walked around a lot, i came home around 12. i bought a new book :D i read 50 pages last night then passed out. wootwoot! so today i have no idea what i'm doing but it'll probably be fun. okayssss goodbye world. (:

hi, i felt like writing again. so after i wrote that, me kiddy and tor went to the movies. good time. we saw coraline cause nothing else was worth watching and seriously that movie is great. we got back and ordered pizza. that's all i've been eating this break. it's so bad. lalala. today was really good. something happened. but i guess i'm getting used to it. i hope it stays the way it is because i wouldn't be able to deal if it went back to how it was. you won't know what i'm talking about and i'm happy about that. this is where i basically talk to myself, or whoever is reading this. i don't know. okay i just felt like saying that. goodnight whoever reads this. (:

p.s - i hope you stay safe. no matter whats happened between us, i still care about you and wouldn't want anything to happen. make the right decision, please.

13

SO DEAD. okay on sunday i went to the city with my sister. we visited the wax museum! (: i had lots of fun. but my legs are still dying from manhunt, and walking in the city all day didn't really help. lalala so when i came home i went to kiddys house with tor and tracy and slept there. i love them. i was with them all today too. we went to applebees then walked around for hours. [legs hurt even more] and yeah, that's basically how it went. i'm so tired, i can't even keep my eyes open to write this. okays byeee!


we are just too cute (:

12

wow, just wow. so i'll start off with last night. it was so much fun. me, tor, cat, sammy, connor, kristina, caylin, megan, sean, joe and amanda all played manhunt for hours. i haven't ran that fast/much in a WHILE. i'm out of shape, so now my legs are killing me. oh and my knee is all cut up because whenever i play i always end up tripping in the SAME spot. i just never learn. hahaa. anyway we were up til God knows when and i got the worst sleep so that explains why i'm mad tired right now. well, today i basically took a stroll down memory lane. my family sat down and looked at old pictures for hours. it's just so weird looking back at everything. so much shit has changed since then, and when i saw the really old pictures, the only thing i thought of was 'look how less complicated life looks' like seriously. it looked like no one had a care in the world. i don't even know. i'm so tired. goodnight!

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friday the 13th! today was so fucking great. i woke up with a great attitude to the world [that never happens], then went to school and was not stressed at ALL. some mad weird shit did happen though but i'm not worried about it, actually glad it happened. SO, i'm gonna go get ready and then i'll be with my best friends til saturday! our WHOLE group[and more] is hanging out and that hasn't happened since basically before summer. okays! bye (:

best friends; always.

10

it was absolutely gorgeous today. i didn't wear my huge ass winter coat! (: okay so today felt like friday, and it was quite upsetting. i can't wait for this week to end... vacation! thank God. i seriously need this. i wasn't as stressed as i usually am, today.. aw yay! lalala i have a lot of homework to do. I FEEL LIKE THAT'S ALL I EVER SAY HERE, I'M SORRY BUT IT'S TRUE. okay, homework time. bye! (:

^mine. the sky was pretty and i wish my camara didn't suck balls.

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good mood! good mood! i don't remember everything that happened but today was funny as hell. (: i'm on the phone with tortor atm and she's screaming in my ear, just to let you know. okay i don't even know what i'm saying. i have lots of work and studying to do, what else is new. AND WHY IS THIS WEEK GOING SO SLOW? oh my God. okay time to go. bye!

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it's fucking gorgeous outside. it was about 60 today. i can't wait til spring/summer. i can't wait to go outside in shorts and a tshirt and be able to walk wherever i want and not freeze my ass off. i mean, i love winter but i'm hating the snow right now because whenever it does snow it's only about 2 inches. what the hell! then 90 percent of the time it rains after so it's all gross and slushy =/ blahhh. anyways, i am such a procrastinator to the point where it's sickening. i have so much crap to do before tomorrow and i didn't start any of it yet. i probably won't start until about 9 because that's what always happens. well, today and yesterday were the most unproductive days. all i did was basically sleep and eat. i went to micheals before to get more art shit. i spent over 50 bucks. =/ i just can't stop buying shit in that store, it's all so entertaining (: then i got taco bell! yummm. tbell, grilled cheese, salad and pizza is all i ate this weekend and i had absolutely no problem with it. i wonder what i'm going to do after i finish typing this. lalala. okays goodbye!

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HI! okay so, last night was mad funny. i got back from faye's house a little while ago, i slept over. before that me and kiddy went spotlight and it was amazing and a bunch of good songs were played [like usual]. so much funny shit happened then. after it was over a bunch of people just chilled outside of the school for about 30 minutes doing nothing, it was a good time. then me faye nick and kiddy went to tbell and drove around and shit. went to the bluffs for a little and continued driving aimlessly. finally around 12:30 ish we went back to faye's and thennnn me and faye both passed out around 1:30. i feel like i haven't slept in years. but i'm all good now. lalala i don't know what i'm doing today, but tonight i'm going out. okay i'm going to go do something productive with my life. bye! (:

^ this song has been stuck in my head all week.

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hi! so, i passed my global midterm! :D it's funny, the ones i don't study/freak out about; i PASS. i don't understandddd. well anyway the past days have been fun. i don't really remember what happened though. it wasn't important at all. but yaknow, it's the simple things like that that make me smile (: i have a lot of homework to do tonight so i'm going to start soon. bye!

"but life's no storybook. love's an excuse to get hurt, and to hurt."

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you're so annoying, if i wanted to tell you about something; I WOULD. since i don't..... that means i don't want to tell you. the reason i don't tell you anything is because i don't need someone criticizing every little thing i do... it's basically ALL you ever do. don't ask me to explain about 'oh why'd you write that' 'oh why'd they say that' WHY WHY WHY shut the hell up already. every time i do tell you, you either take it the wrong way, look at me differently or tell the whole world about it. you really think i tell you everything but honestly, you have no idea what i'm about or who i am. there is no point in explaining my life to you, you'll never understand. overall today sucked. i found out that i failed of my chem midterm. but seriously, i don't understand... i'm doing completely fine in the class but then fail the midterm? FUN. and i studied so much for everything. my global midterm is tomorrow. akjsdhfjksdhf. i have so much homework... "hmmm, first day back from midterms, lets give laura a shitload of homework." yeah fuck you too. i don't think i can explain how much i hate school. i need to re-organize my binders in a little while. they've been driving me crazy for the last 2 weeks. okay, let me go do that. bye!

^ those are both my pictures. Greece 08', i miss you so much.