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OH HEY. i just fainted before. hahaha fun times. idk why that happens. today was funny in it's own way. uhhhh not much to say. it finally feels like summer :D yayayayay. i'm going to a fair with some cool kids, well hopefully.... if it doesn't rain.... >:O uhhh yeah. okay byes. <3

<3

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^ LAST NIGHT. I LOVE THEM TO DEATH. ILFPOG, NO MATTER WHAT. :D
LOL I HAVE TO GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL.....6 WEEKS. KILL ME. BUT OH WELL. I GET TO SEE MY BEST FRIENDS EVERYDAY AND THAT MEANS NO SHIT FROM ANYONE. LOVE THEM MORE THAN ANYTHING.
I'M JUST GOING TO KEEP TYPING IN CAPS. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH YOU =/ I SHOULDN'T BUT DO LIKE YOU. I DON'T KNOW MAN. UGHHHHH. WHATEVER.
i take it back. i miss you. and i just hope everything works out, i really do. (:

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SUMMER.
maddd funny day. going to be a good night. bye<3

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i had a fun weekend, interesting. tomorrow is my last day of 10th grade. 2 hour spanish regents then i'm fucking doneeeeeee. love life. i've been really happy lately. i have the occasional 'everyone's an asshole' moments but that's very normal for me. (:
you seriously put a smile on my face no matter what. i really don't have much to say except i'm really excited. thank you kid. (:

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my life is wonderful right now AND the weather is gorgeous. how much better can it get? i had a good day. took my global regents. LOL. and then went out with kiddy and jungiebunz for a while :D i love you guys. uh... i found out i failed my chem regents. hahahaha fucking knew it. whatever maaan, i don't care. i'm going out with my brother and sister soon, it'll be a good time! and then faye is picking me up later and i'm hanging out with her. best friends forever d00d. okays bye! :D

"I love your smile and your laugh and that grin you sometimes do
You amaze me every day with something new"
<3

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took my chem regents today. HAH. jokeeee. i think i did... okay? i really don't know. tomorrow is english. i know i'm going to do bad because i don't even know one fucking book we read all year. WONDERFUL. lawls i don't give a shit. bye.

<3

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went to taylor's house today. studied and ate mad food. good times. my chem regents is tomorrow, i think if i actually sit there and read the questions, i'll do okay.
nothings going to bother me now. i don't care if people don't want to talk to me anymore, chances are... i rather not talk to them either. i'm so done with every one's shit. i'm with the people i love, and that's all that fucking matters. treat me like shit.... see if i care. you mean nothing to me, nothing. trust me. (:
thank you for always putting a smile on my face.

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today was the last day of 10th grade. SO DAMN HAPPY. i had a really good day :D i don't know what else to say but i need to study for all these test or i might die. :(

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bored out of my mind! i tried studying for chem today - fail. it made me want to punch someone in the face. i really hate school. tomorrow is my LAST day. holy fuck, so excited. then my 5 tests and i'm fucking DONE. this was by far the worst year of my life. i've never been so upset. yeah, i've had memorable times but overall.... it sucked. but anyway, i have a feeling that this is going to be a great summer. <3

"how come everybody else seems so happy
and have intelligent things to say
cause you know that isn't me"

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last night was a lot of fun, thank you tor kiddy alexa and amanda (: today should be too. woooo. i'm in an awkward mood right now. i'm happy but upset at the same time. i don't really know what to do. i can't change peoples opinions on things. so i guess i'll just sit back and wait for things to change? sure. okay i'm going out now. bye <3

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i hate how one day i'm in the best mood and the next i want to kill someone. i fucking hate everyone. so close to giving up you don't even know. every one's making me miserable. i wish everyone would stop taking their fucking problems out on me. i'm just trying to fucking help you all, let me for once. it would probably make a difference. i'm slowly loosing the people i love, one by one. i don't know what to do with myself. I TIRED TO CHANGE. i honestly did. i know i'm a terrible person, but i tried to be better. once again, failed. what the fuck am i suppose to do with myself, honestly? i really can't take this. this shit better not continue in the summer. oh and on top of that, the fucking tests are in less than a week. REALLY? God bless me. i need a hug. :(

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despite all of the immature assholes i had to deal with today, i'm in a really good mood. i don't know what it is about you, but i love it. i was looking back on some things, and wow! life is mad weird. having my necklace break last month was a sign of change, in many ways. well not the actual necklace itself, but the fact that i wore that all year and then it decides to break, at a perfect time, just as something new was starting. weird mannn. um, life is good. very easy right now. 3 more days of school left.... WHAT? then all the tests, but i might as well not even stress out, i don't know the information now.... and i won't in one week. so fuck it. since i love to sleep more than anything right now, i'm going to sleep. bye <3

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just got home a little a while ago. i went to northport and subway with faye (: today was easy, i slept most of it. i feel like i should be trying harder because it's the end of school, but honestly.... nothing is pushing me to do better. i don't even see a point. i try and fail. it's like a cycle now, whateverrr mannn. i have a good feeling about this summer. it's going to be different, but a good different. love my friends. hate everyone else. i should study? knowing me, i'll say it and want to study, but never will. wonderful. hope i pass my tests? KBYE.

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i had a good time last night, very interesting. hahahah. okay so these are going to be the toughest 2 weeks of the year, so get ready for bitching later on. this is the last week of school, then the final/regent week. oh fuuuuuck.

have you ever went out of your way to avoid something, but it still happens? my life. i didn't want this to happen, right now at least. i wanted this to wait til summer. i can't deal with this on top of everything else that's happening. i don't know what's going to happen i honestly don't. i just need it to be summer so something could happen. i don't know man. i should stop talking now.

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last night was fun. we all went to faye's house and just chilled and had a good time. i slept over (: oh and i don't know what to do with myself. i like you, but i can't turn into that. that's the last thing i need. jsdhlafjsdf life. i need to put everything aside for 2 weeks, that's all i have left of school and i need to focus on all my tests and other shit. i don't know man. alright i'm gonna go get ready to go in the pool. then out later with people (: