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i am dead tired right now. i can hardly keep my eyes open to write this. i just wanted to say that i'm kind of upset. i was reading through old things [which is a bad idea because i always end up like this] and i noticed something. that something was that i actually wanted to go to school last year. last year i had a reason. this year? nothing. nothing at all. nothing is making me go to school, if it was up to me i'd stay home everyday and sleep. i need a reason to want to go to school. a reason to want to do anything, really. oh, before i was doing a health project on anxiety. i seriously just noticed that everything i read described me perfectly. maybe that explains why i'm the way i am, maybe it doesn't. who knows? apparently i don't. whatever. i want to start over, an all new me... i'm just really scared. i don't know. i need to sleep, i feel like a zombie. goodnight whoever.