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hihi. nothing really new. i've basically been home all day. now i have to do all of my homework. this should be fun.

i honestly don't want to say this but i miss you. i miss us. you gave me something to look forward to. you were the reason i went to school last year. to see you. we were such good friends. now you're gone. we can't even talk anymore, its gotten to the point that it just doesn't make sense. there are certain things i have the urge to tell you, but i can't. not anymore. seeing you now just makes me weak, hearing your voice makes me want to scream. just the 2 seconds that we pass in the hallway can ruin my day, just like that. it makes me so fucking upset. just your name, something you used to say, anything about you makes me think back to that night. i miss you. i wonder if you ever get like this. well, i hope we start talking again somewhat. ugh i don't even know why i'm wasting my time writing this. it's not like you'll read it.
i hope everything works out for you. i really do. you need this more than anything. seeing you upset day after day just kills me. you asked me to pray for you, trust me, i am. a lot. i just want you to be happy again. i love you no matter what.


awww! this providence! i love them a lot. dblaise, thanks for the call :D kiddy took this just now. ugh i wish i went to bamboozle. :/