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i thought this should have it's own post.

"and suddenly it seems that my shoulder blades have just shifted. it's like the greatest gift you can get. the weight has been lifted. now it don't feel like the world's on my shoulders." so, that's basically what happened. slowly but sure enough i think everything will start coming back together. all the fights, crying, screaming, etc... is pointless. it doesn't get you anywhere. well, i don't know about you, but it never got me anywhere. it's a waste of my time. i shouldn't be miserable over dumb shit. and i won't. i tried not to but it just got to a point where i snapped. but i did some good things today. i apologized to some people that deserved it. i don't care what was said, why it happened, anything. we can't even remember what happened. shows how important it was right? POINTLESS. i am trying to be a better person. i don't want to hate anyone and i don't want anyone to hate me. just civil. it's going to be a lot of work but so far, it's worth it. i think i might be able to go to sleep with a smile on my face. for the first time in a while i don't feel like shit. thank you to the people who got me through this. <3

everyone else, stay strong. we can get through this.